No joke. A few minutes away from my exit on the freeway, I my car started making a clanking sound every time I accelerated. I turned off my exit as usual, but the upcoming turn was different. The wheel resisted to rotate, and I barely made the left turn as oncoming traffic zoomed by. Later, the wheel resisted again, barely allowing my car to go right. Thankfully, I had already slowed down and was turning into my house.
In short, if the wheel resistance occurred one turn earlier as I got off the exit, I could have gotten into a bad accident. And died.
There are so many things you can think about when you realized death was just at your door. For me, there’s just one thing on my mind. And it is this.
I’ve got a God who was merciful enough to save me tonight, despite the fact He knew I would betray Him with sin soon after. Sin that was enough to condemn me to eternal separation. He also knows that I will commit many more eternally damning acts in the coming days, weeks, and years. Yet He spared me.
But it came at a cost. You know this nifty little holiday coming up? That one where people cuddle up and prance around in the winter wonderland? Where cheerful music fills the air and kids hold up their new toys in a victorious pose? That’s the holiday where we celebrate the birth of a baby boy who was born to be slaughtered.
I don’t know how God thinks. But if I were to take a guess, I would wonder if any part of His heart was grieving as He stared down at baby Jesus, His Son that just began His life as a human so that He could die for those who would nail Him to the cross. I still can’t comprehend why He would die for stupid little humans like me, who betray Him day in and day out by rebelling and sinning against Him… why He would have spared me tonight to live another day.
My sins have been nailed to the cross, to a perfect man who conquered death by coming back to life three days later. I’m saved, and all because I have set my faith in Him? Absolutely ridiculous, and that’s why many people dismiss Christianity. I’ll admit–it is absolutely ridiculous, but that’s why I love it. That’s why I love Him. Because His ridiculous love saved me.
Merry Christmas, everyone. In a few days, anyways.